went to watch Dance Subaru with two friends +colleagues of mine. it was quite enjoyable.

all 3 of us love the movie. find it very inspiring! like one of my friend said, i do feel like learning ballet or dancing after watching the movie.

wanted to donate to the organizer, but i was too late. perhaps they should put up another booth right after the movie for people like me who are slow.

was looking for her but failed. i knew i shouldn't do it. but i just can't stop myself.

today, wanted to treat my family KFC. in the end, mum went to cook.

shall treat them next week!

this will be another venting post. please ignore if you don't want to read about my life or her.

i am hating myself right now for..

although i promised myself not to read about her life (at least not as often as i used to), i still find myself doing it. the only thing that i got back, is hurt. again and again.

promised myself not to think about her and i am still doing it. it didn't help that u kept all the things to yourself and did not mention it to me. both of us are hurt in the end. whenever i think of both of our friendship, i will not be able to sleep.

right now, i doubt you will want to know about me or how i feel. how hurtful your words are to me that day over the phone though someone did warn me.

who are you to me? why do i even have to think through what am i gonna comment before posting on your post? why the extra effort? why does she have the right to choose her friends and i don't?

you are hinting me that you are the one making the extra effort? how about me? frankly, i feel so tired whenever we meet up - to have to think whenever i speak.

why why? why am i making myself miserable because of her?

i wish i can stop myself. please, let me keep my promise and make my life happy again.

guess i might be walking out of her life after all.

guess my title says it all.

today is my first time that i felt so frustrated during work.

not because of the children, perhaps with the lacking of sleep that leds to it.

planning to conduct a lesson tmr on my own. i seriously hope my class teachers will help me out.

suddenly have many things as a class's teacher must do.

i am still learning ^^

my ordered things are coming on this coming sunday!

movie event with the fans of dbsk's in singapore on sat!

tired. near to exhaustion.

weather is really hot and humid although it was raining in the afternoon.

am going to sleep early.

please give me more strenth for tomorrow!

didn't realised this week passed so fast!

work has gotten busier for me. have to bring home homework at times to do.

went to Johor Baharu as mentioned. it was a short trip. things that bought are mostly for eating.

as usual, bought a few mags.

worked on sat. supposed to be next week, changed shift with one of my colleague because next week will be going to watch Dance Sabaru with dbsk's fans in singapore.

will be going with that coursemate, colleague and friend of mine. not 3, but all combine into 1 person.

i miss my toddler class children!

going to malaysia for a short one day trip.

accompany my parents. 3rd sis will be coming as well!

have yet to finish some of my homework. guess have to do it when i get back later.

might be coming back to update more later.

ciao!

am feeling tired. shall rest early tonight.

was called to work earlier than usual today. to cover one of my colleague's shift.

will be doing the same for tmr.

working this coming sat too. by right should be on the 30th. but i have a movie to catch that day. tickets had already book long time ago.

going with the courcemate/friend/colleague that i'm working with in my sch. shall i just name her?hahahaha..

alright. am going to play a few games before heading to bed.

can't really describe my feeling right now.

i hope they will work things out somehow when they see each other.

work was okay as usual. though nap time for children was busier than usual.

finally handed up my homework. hopefully it is okay.

i have the right to write how i feel. after all, this is my blog.

why is he in the dark? why didn't they tell him? it won't change anything if they don't.

he should get to know the truth somehow. it will benefit him.

had some homework in hand for work. was busy.

knocked out yesterday right after showering. today too, but not so bad as compared to yesterday.

took my 3rd sis car today. i meant, sitting in a car that she drove for my 1st time. surprisingly, it wasn't scary. but it was boring. accompanied her boyfriend whom have yet to have his dinner. she was driving his car. they nearly ended up quarrelling.

what can i do? i can't say much. so the only thing i did, was to stay at the back, quietly.

my right knee has started to hurt.

another week is going to pass. how i wish today is friday. time is flying really fast.

some things i wish to forget, but it always come back no matter how i wish it will just vanish.

what happened recently, is really something that i didn't expect to happen. making new friends because of it, do i deserve them all?

need to start thinking. me and her.

below are some of my graduation pictures. didn't have my camera with me. so took others.

had work today. in fact,it is my first sat working.

experience is not bad. managed to know a few children from other classes.

also, it is much more relaxing as compared to weekdays.

went to watch 'X-Men Origins: Wolverine' right after work with 2 colleagues.

sat down and chat at starbucks after the movie ended. was a little shocked to find one of them younger than me by 1 year. in fact both are, just that one of them is my coursemate, so i knew her beforehand.

chatted about work. shared our experiences and laughed a lot. i'm glad i have these two colleagues to talk to. this chatting session helps.

am i weird?

or just because people don't understand me?

i'm tired of thinking this. enough for now.

just finding a place to vent my frustration.

work are piling up. i'm sure i will get stressful soon.

need to handle parents-teacher relationship. something that every teacher have to face.

please let me get this over soon.

working tmr. my 1st saturday working.

felt so tired when working.

didn't have my usual morning coffee in addition of getting worried over work yesterday.

managed to sleep somehow last night. amazed of myself.

learnt a lot of things during work yesterday. i was the in-charge.

graduation ceremony is tomorrow!

As We Kiss Goodbye (KISS SHITA MAMA SAYONARA)

Blink... Smell it... and feel it...
Open, open your eyes
Just look at me now

You were my world
One lost shoe, a small broken fingernail
The spilled hot coffee and stale tears too

Blink... Smell it... and feel it...
Open, open your eyes
Just look at me now

You were my world
One lost shoe, a small broken fingernail
The spilled hot coffee and stale tears too

Girl, tell me little lie
Please, tell me little lie
So that I can hear you
But you just softly slipped away...

*
Longway people
Longway people
That's right... we were unaware that day, just talking

**
Longway people Longway people
Just crying... crying... crying... Can I forget?

On this never-ending road...That you're no longer on
As we kiss goodbye

Girl, tell me little lie
Please, tell me little lie
So that I can hear you
Now the snow piles up, enveloping me

* Repeat

Longway people
Longway people
Just crying... crying... crying... Can I forget?

Blurred in the memories,
The number of my tears (my heart will dry)
Are countless, like the stars

** Repeat

Longway people
Longway people
I know you will live in my heart forever

Longway people
Longway people
I'm just crying, crying crying... as we kiss goodbye
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
credit: lunatunalover @ LJ
taken from: dbskarchives.blogspot.com

went to Jurong Point to get a picture of myself taken. for work. the photo turned up isn't nice at all.

2nd sis and mum was with me. our plans were, get a pair of shoes for my mum and a massage machine for my mum. ended up, we only got a pair of shoes for her. mum doesn't want any of us to get her anything. she wants to either get the massage machine herself or dad to buy for her.

guess i have to give something else for mum for Mother's Day. perhaps a red packet?

took a long time as other than shopping for the shoes, we went to John Little too. mum and sis bought some undergarments. as for myself, a white casual top. thinking back, i don't have a white causal top at all.

mum and sis went home right after while i went to TS to look for new Japan dramas. bought two.Popular was last.

reached home at around 2pm. took a nap right after. guess i won't be sleeping early today.

went out with cons to support her friends. met up with hannah as well. it feels good to see them again after some time. i miss the days when we were still studying.

didn't really update them much about things that had been happening to me. not that i don't trust them. like i mentioned, i don't want to think about it. at least not until my graduation ceremony is over.

anyway, after cons' friends performance, we went to Pepper Lunch for lunch. next stop was far east plaza. managed to get a pair of shoes for the ceremony. this is the first time i went shopping with cons alone. the feeling/atmosphere was nice. wasn't hurried or anything.

got my blouse at taka. went to a lot of shops beforehand. none have, if not, none have my size. luckly, G2000 was my final stop.

kino was our last destination. finally bought a book that i was looking for. have yet to start on it as i have not finish the previous book.

work as usual ended at 6pm. but i didn't go right on time ^^

dun ask me why. i'm not sure why either. the other teachers always leave on time. perhaps i love the company of the children?

anyway, right after work, walked with my mentor to the train station. went our seperate ways upon reaching. next stop was post office!

waited for about 30 mins before it was my turn. opened the envelops and inside, it is my DBSK calender!finally! it is here. with me. right beside me now. though it is already May, the calender is currently flipped to March. jaejoong! i love his pictures in the calender best!

i'm trying to make myself to update here everyday. but frankly, sooner or later, i'll be tired of updating everyday.

anyway, work today was as usual. all the same routines everyday, no changes.

i'm not planning on keep thinking about mine and her friendship these days. not until my graduation is over at least.

just received a post office delivery notice. i believe is my dbsk table calender. finally. will be collecting it tmr.

realised i'm lacking the courage to face her. a face-to-face confrontation.

someone, please give me the courage, strength and the patience to face her. without me crying in public or wherever place we'll be meeting to talk.

just got to know how she thinks about me. if she mentioned how she feels instead of keeping it all inside her, our friendship won't be like now. perhaps i am at fault too. for not being frank on how i feel about her,telling it to her honestly, whenever we met.

confront her only when i am ready? is that what i am suppose to do now?

but when will i be ready? i myself don't even know.

Introverted (I) 64.71% Extroverted (E) 35.29%
Sensing (S) 66.67% Intuitive (N) 33.33%
Feeling (F) 58.82% Thinking (T) 41.18%
Judging (J) 65.63% Perceiving (P) 34.38%

Your type is: ISFJ

ISFJ - "Conservator". Desires to be of service and to minister to individual needs - very loyal. 13.8% of total population.

Jung Type Descriptions

ISFJ
follows the rules, polite, fears drawing attention to self, dislikes competition, somewhat easily frightened, easily offended, timid, dutiful, private, lower energy, finisher, organized, socially uncomfortable, modest, not confrontational, easily hurt, observer, prone to crying, not spontaneous, does not appreciate strangeness - intolerant to differences, apprehensive, clean, planner, prone to confusion, afraid of many things, responsible, guarded, avoidant, anxious, cautious, suspicious, more interested in relationships and family than intellectual pursuits, not adventurous, fears doing the wrong thing, dislikes change

favored careers:
homemaker, stay at home parent, office worker, health care worker, personal assistant, school teacher, administrative assistant, child care worker, clerical employee, receptionist, library assistant, dietician, health educator, librarian


disfavored careers:
rock star, philosophy professor, filmmaker, performer, writer, bar owner, comedian, dj, entertainer, ceo, psychotherapist, bartender, entrepreneur, lecturer, astronomer

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been thinking about the words that she mentioned over the phone.

although i've been wanting to make our friendship last. but does she?

in my heart, i really want to ask her to answer that since she told/question me that herself. indeed it is hurtful to me.

everything she told me over the phone was okay for me. until, she told me that sentence. am i the only one who is working hard for both of our friendship all this while?

if she doesn't want our friendship to last, why did she even meet me in the first place?

frankly, today, i'm glad her words did not affect me when i was working. perhaps i might become a professional afterall. work is work. outside life is outside of work. so don't think about it when working.

but when i reach home, it all came rushing back to me. right now, all i can think about is that sentence.

told my 3rd sis about it. she shared her opinion and questioned me a lot of things after that.

perhaps she is right. the only best friend one will have. is myself.

i'm about to loose someone that i've been working on for both me and her friendship recently.

in addition thanks to someone who comes into my life recently because of her.

i would like to thank the person who warned me. but on another hand, i'm sorry to drag you in.

i don't want to blame anyone. afterall, it was myself who made this friendship/situation become worst.

looks like a lot of things had happened and and for being such an absentminded person, currently i need someone or something to trigger me off what to write in the letter.

i planned on meeting her this coming sunday. whatever it is, like i always mentioned to her, i treasure our friendship.

i seriously hope this meeting will not turn up as what she and i planned to be in the end.

weekend is going to be over.

didn't go out today though it was planned to.

was planning to go out with my 1st sis to either watch movie or kbox. but after the quarrel yesterday, neither of us are speaking to each other today. not that the quarrel was that bad, but there is simply nothing to talk about.

played the games on neopets instead and did the weekend activities for my guild that i was given to.

watched a few epis of the anime 'Ai Yori Aoshi' which i missed when it was air in channel u last year.

that's all i did for today. amazing isn't it?

will be getting back to watch a few videos before heading to sleep.

am feeling tired.

woke up early today. went to collect graduation gown with 3rd sis and her boyfriend.

had lunch and treated them ice-cream at JP right after.

went to bank to transfer and withdrawl money. queued by myself for 1 and a half hour. was amazed by my own patience of waiting.

walked round JP for 30 mins. final destination was back home.

quarrelled with 1st sis because of money issue. i just don't understand her.

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	9
Acts of Service:	7
Physical Touch:	6
Receiving Gifts:	4
Words of Affirmation:	4

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"Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be." - DBSK

Hello, My name is Li Yu.
D.O.B: 15th September 1988
School: Qifa Primary, Hua Yi Secondary & Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

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