today is my first time being so angry during work.

not with colleagues.

not sure what came over me. but luckly, it all happened after nap time.

know i shouldn't talk about it again since it is already over, however, on another hand, it will be better for me to vent it over here rather than keep thinking about it isn't it?

sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't.

will be working early shift tmr. when will i get my own personal key?

ooo...finally! the buttons are back! for photo upload and etc.

knocked off on time today. come home straight. and realised, parents and 2nd sis are still not back yet. they went for 2nd sis's graduation ceremony.

have yet to taken my dinner. getting hungry..

very soon, will be taking studio photos with our graduation gown. am not looking forward to it for now. reason? no money.

just bought a book regarding early childhood field and care. its in singapore context! finally! feel that the price is expensive though.

recently been buying stickers. hahaha..i have no idea why.

not sure if its like the subject mentioned for today.

somehow my patience ran out for a short while while i was working.

even openly showed my unhappiness.

usually i will keep it to myself during work. at least, until i reach home.

anyway, since it is over, there's no need for me to think about it anymore. and of course, i did reflect on it.

just checked my schedule for this week. really not constant. luckly, i'm not working this coming sat. but am still doing facial.

shift on saturdays somehow settled and fixed. am working with a colleague of mine that i am not familiar with. am a little worried.

met up with sis and her boyfriend after work today. shift was early so knocked off early as well. sis actually came to my school and had a look at my class and my children. how i wish i can intro a few of my children to my sis. i wonder will she have the same view as me..

time for weekend is always gone so fast.

but, am happy that i've got to stay home on sat to rest. for the whole day.

today as usual, woke up early for training. ended at 12pm.

went to JP next. as mentioned, for facial.

bought a lot of things back home to eat right after.

feeling so full ^^

something is still wrong with blogspot. i can't find the buttons for uploading pictures, font size and etc.

finally blog is working for me.

not that it wasn't, just that there seems to be something wrong with the page when i tried to update. a few days already. i can still update though. have to bare with the page.

anyway, yesterday's work training went well. though we had picnic in the rain. it was just drizzling...

learnt a lot. experience was fun but tiring.

a lot of hands-on experiences. i love such experiences as i am more of a visual learner.

went back to the centre right after to meet dear jaslyn, serene and rosie.

next destination was k-box!

had lots of fun there ^^ only pity thing is rosie did not sing at all -_-

will be staying at home today. RC having a fun fair today. starting right now? so noisy...

floorball training tmr! facial next ^^

going for a picnic tmr. work.

excited? not really.

not working tmr, but going for training for work.

will it be interesting? will find out tmr.

have to wake up early to prepare the food for the picnic. making hamburgar.

after training will be k.box.

went to see doctor again.

was told to see one and get mc.

and now i have more medicine to take.

spend the day watching drama. currently am watching Jap drama 'Ghost Friends'.

have many more dramas in my mind that i am planning to watch. those are still airing though.

'Koishite Akuma'.

'Buzzer Beat'.

'Ninkyo Helper'.

above 3 for now. i hope they get subs faster!

will be on MC for 2 days.

principal told me to stay at home.

been catching up on the Jap drama 'Boss' for the whole day. finally i'm done with it ^^

i miss my children!!

knocked off on time today.

finally after such a long time.

lao shi was surprised.

english teacher shooed me to knock off.

hahahaha..am i supposed to be happy?

somehow the feeling is great.

i made a promise to myself not to think about it again.

but somehow, it isn't helping if the other party keep talking about it.

do i really have to cut myself away from reading your posts? frankly, i'm finding it hard to.

have u ever put yourself in my or our shoes?

honestly, i did. in your shoes.

disappointment once again.

exhausted.

going to sleep soon.

1st floorball training today.

went well i guess. even for the friendly.

will be taking it as a practice.

need to get contacts soon. running out.

knees are killing me! the pain...

Khai - one of my closest classmates

Michelle - coursemate

on bed currently using laptop.

just got home and took a shower.

watched Harry Potter today. with khai. left me hanging. good or bad? i'm not sure either. guess it was okay for me.

hannah's 21st birthday went well. all her dearest friends turned up ^^. am happy for her.

took some pictures during the party. lazy to upload. tmr maybe.

constance showed me the 'kpop crazy-ness' they had in class. hahaha..misses the old days spent in school.

1st floorball training tmr. have to wake up early.

signing off.

back to work tmr.

feeling much more better after taking the medicine.

suddenly remembered there is homework. just finished. uncompleted though.

2nd sis has yet to come home. this is weird. normally she will be home late because of work.

mum unable to sleep because of her. now folding clothes. hahaha..what a way to pass time!

sincere apologies to constance and hannah for not turning up for their presentation.

this weekend is happening for me!

finally have the time to see one.

told me i've got a mild cold.

hate the running and blocking nose feeling. dry cough too!!

guess today's pre-quality check went well for centre.

will not be going for work tmr.

one day MC!

finally.

the symptoms have ended. and now it is the sickness itself.

flu. running nose.

coughing stage is building up.

definitely taking MC soon.

how about half day tmr?

shall sleep after this post.

rest well friends ^.^

restart the friendship.

i suppose there will be no regret from me.

starting from the scratch. no more extra effort. no more pressure.

just decided to join back floorball. not school but consider outside team.

aishah just told me there might be a friendly on sunday. on the day which i had just decided to go for my 1st training.

oh my god!!

ready to let go?

perhaps i am.

why didn't anyone tell me about it earlier? why am i always the last to know?

what am i suppose to do now? change now? now then change, will it help?

immature? grow up?

am i really? friends, please tell me.

here i thought, everything is over. but it is not. not until either of us make the final decision.

why is this friendship making me feeling so disturb every SINGLE time?

i am tired. i really am.

forgive me if i make a decision that no one likes. if there is regret, i will be the one who suffer. not anyone else.

just give me time to breathe and think. i miss my free-off-thinking of this friendship period.

time-off is what i need right now.

please.

finally met up with 'her'.

am happy that she finally told me how she felt all this while.

meeting didn't work for her. but it did for me.

not sure when will be the next time we'll be meeting. perhaps in a long time?

time to grow up?

not feeling well since sat.

overwork? maybe..

throat has been feeling weird. not the normal sore throat i usually get, i suppose.

sisters and i aren't feeling well. first time where all 4 of us fall sick at the same time.

been feeling tired and uncomfortable at work since monday.

mentor noticed it even though i did not tell her about the unwellness.

asked me to sleep for a while during children's nap time. i didn't though. that is not right.

think pretty soon i will take MC.

Ariel Lin 林依晨 - Fireflies (螢火蟲) MV feat. Super Junior Donghae and Siwon

credit: ilovekidoya @ youtube

2 for today.

for some reason, i can't seem to upload the pictures.

anyway, the 2 dvds are 'The Spirit of the sword' and 'Zhong Ji San Guo'.

both are in mandarin. one for mum and another for myself.

3th month payment is here.

was feeling sick yesterday. sore throat as well as fever in the night.

woke up today with no fever and mild sore throat.

went JP to develop photos for one of my colleagues.

bought a present for 'her'. a present that i promised to give for her good result in a japanese exam that was months ago?

meeting her soon. to settle our problem.

i hope i will have the courage to talk to her like i chatted with god-brother and his friends last night.

why is there suddenly so many things in my mind now?

one regarding work. another regarding personal life.

why? why is both happening at the same time? well, though it isn't exactly both at the same time, but they are both in my mind right now.right this very minute.

great, now i am feeling stressful and pressurize.

don't wish to speak or chat to anyone at the moment. at least not till tmr.

frankly, i don't plan on settling our problem on that day that we are planning to meet. but someone told me it is my last chance. yes, i agreed that it is not good to drag, but u will need to see the right timing and environment right? also, to be honest, the feeling isn't there anymore. i have no idea why do i need to apologize, in fact, i am angry.

angry at, why am i the one that wants to sort things out? am i really in the wrong? can't i just say what i felt to others? don't i have the right to do it?

something bad is coming across my mind right now. should i voice it out here? is it even safe to do it?

safe? where is safe?

i am so lost right now.

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Hello, My name is Li Yu.
D.O.B: 15th September 1988
School: Qifa Primary, Hua Yi Secondary & Ngee Ann Polytechnic.

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