♥Tuesday, August 4, 2009
it is coming back,♥
feeling miserable right now.
sickness. personal issue. life.
not to worry. i am not going to end my life. just basically about life.
i am happy with who i am now. it is difficult to change. difficult to experience things that i have yet to experience for my age.
simply because i am protected. well-protected by people surrounding me.
i am disturbed about why are there so many steps in a friendship. people can find me immature. but this is how and what i am thinking now. like it or not. just keep to yourself. i have enough of people telling me how experience they are in turns of their own personal life.
different people live different life style.u can't simply force someone to experience things that they have yet to experience. calling someone immature? why don't u think about it yourself before calling me that?
if u want me to say, normally i won't blow my temper. or even show it. i will keep it in myself till i vent it out, either by blogging or talking to my family members.
right now, i'm mad. the more i think about it, the madder i am.
simply have enough of it.
just chatted with god-brother. things that we have chatted, is setting me off to think about 'it' again.
made a promise to myself not to think about it, somehow once it started, everything came rushing back.
it is like a bad dream. only bad dream won't repeat itself or continue after once waken up.
i don't want to be part of the reason for the relationship. i don't like to be involved. now i AM involved.
only hope is, he won't ask her anything about the friendship anymore, and any of the things that we have just chatted.
Fishie is love @ 8/04/2009 09:36:00 PM